Assalamualaikum.
It's been a while again.
Workload in medical is like crazy, I loss about 3kg in 2 months. Hahahaha. But good working environment because you are given a chance to make decision. You given a chance to decide life and death. You are the first liner. That's what I think of medical.
I still remember, my first night shift after tagging wasnt so bad. We just intubated 1 patient with impending respiratory failure.
My second night shift the most terrible one. I was scared for the first time since I have been a HO. I have 7 new cases (normal quantity of new cases in medical, I know). That's not the bad one. Almost at the end of my shift, I had 1 new case, which I thought just a normal fluid overload case. However, it was turn out to be a mycardiac infarction case. Which you know, once you diagnosed or you felt it was a MI you just have hours or even minutes. Times were ticking and I am scared for his life. We did our best. But he end up been lifeless at the end.
I am just felt that, if I were fast enough to go and see him, if I were competent enough to realize earlier that it was a MI, maybe maybe he was a life that could be save on. And I m sorry.
Medical is a department that gave me a chance, to growth. It's cultivating, which I felt so different from my previous department. Thanks for the trust, thanks for your acceptance the way of my thinking, that was the first time.
Thanks medical !
P/S:
Dear you, I let you go. Sorry for not be the one. It's a great pleasure to know you. Hee.
