It's Ours!

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Malaysia menang Piala Suzuki AFF 2010! Ok. Jangan excited sangat Fatihah Anisah. Tenang-tenang. Malaysia menang! *sambil jerit-jerit* Ok. Fatihah Anisah gila.

Ini kali ke seratus saya tengok bola dengan semangatnya. Ok. Tipu.

Apa-apa pun, Fahmi dah ada awek. Saya jeles. Fine. Saya tahu saya tiada hak untuk jeles. Tapi apa boleh buat, saya jeles. Haish. Wahai hati, tolong jangan mengkhianati Jaybum saya.

Harimau Malaya, tahniah kerana mengisi kehausan 14 tahun kemenangan piala Suzuki ini.

Harimau Malaya terima kasih atas usaha anda yang berterusan dan terima kasih lagi, kerana sekurang-kurangnya, kami rakyat Malaysia di Indonesia dapat berbangga dengan anda, generasi yang membolehkan kami mendongak kepala menentang tuduhan dan hinaan meraka.

Tahniah dan terima kasih.

P/S= Now I know why I keep on having flu these days. This is all because of the medicine I took for my allergy. Immunospresant. They suppress my immune system!

Indonesia, jom kita kawan balik. Nak tak? *mata bersinar-sinar penuh harapan*

Semangat!

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Hai! *Wink*

Cuba teka apa kitaorang satu rumah buat hari ini? Pergi sambut pemain bola sepak Malaysia di Bandara Sokarnoe Hatta. Ok.

First.

Saya sangatlah tidak kenal mereka. Sebab saya agak kurang berminat dengan bola sepak. =P

Second.

Ada orang kata muka mereka macam tukang Ojek. Punyalah handsome macam itu diorang kata macam tukang Ojek. Ok *Part orang kata macam tukang Ojek: betul, Part handsome: tipu sedikit (menang lagi Jaybum saya)*

Third.

Saya sangat berharap mereka menang buat kali kedua di Jakarta ini. Adoi. Berdarah telinga ini dengar komen yang kurang memberansangkan dan menimbulkan semangat "Malaysia tolonglah kalahkan Indonesia habis-habisan dalam bola sepak" dari teman-teman local. *Ini ayat emo*

Fourth.

Sangat tidak sabar untuk beritahu abang ipar saya yang saya jumpa mereka. Konfem dia mesti sangat jeles.

Fifth.

Boleh tak kalau nak jumpa pemain bola sepak itu lagi. Gatal!

Selamat berjaya dalam berjuang untuk kemenangan Piala Suzuki AFF!

P/S= Setahu saya, sukan mengajar kita untuk lebih bersamaan. So, can we donot ruin the spirit just because of some minor things. We lost, we accepted it. You lost, can't you just do the same?

Belitung. Totally Cool and Beautiful.

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I m done with Belitung. Trust me, Belitung is so beautiful and tranquil. It is so uncontaminated. The sand is so white, the ocean is crystal clear, you can see the corals and fishes beneath it. It is so cool.

Sitting at the front of the fisherman boat, with around you, was the ocean, you will realize that how fragile a human being could be. To be born as a khalifah, we are weaker that the ocean, but then, that is the specialty of human being. We are weaker than His other creation but we are the best.

We had been dropped in the islands. Swam across an island to an island. Snorkeling in middle of the beautiful sea. Playing cradle on the beach while waiting for our lunch and so much more. It's felt so great, so peaceful and so damn beautiful.

The last day, we visited the school of Laskar Pelangi's shooting. It's old. The lessons of life does not depend on how modern the school is, but how the modesty mind could learn.

I used not into the ocean, because it is salty, hot and make you dark. But the trip to Belitung changed it. Now, I love the ocean more than I did before.

Suddenly, I remember my bedtime story about the ocean. My mom always told us the story when we were kids.

Millions years ago, the wind was living on the mountain. He always wondered what was the end of the river. He asked the mountain, but the mountain was so old, he can't even see. So, the mountain couldn't tell the wind anything. He asked the river, but the river was so long, she doesn't even know where her tail end. He asked the sky, but the sky was so high above. He wouldn't listen to him.

Then, he had made a decision. He must travel along the river. He was so curious and he was too young to listen to others. Then, the journey started. He walked along the river for weeks. He almost given up. But for some reasons he's not.

Then, one day, he found the end of the river. It was the ocean. He felt in love for the first time. He wished the ocean could know about it. But the ocean was so big, so deaf and so blind. He could not even told the ocean. Then, he made a decision, he will always be beside the ocean no matter what, although she not even notice of him.

That why, when you have been on the beach you will never see the ocean without the wind. The blow of the wind is the love that never end.

For me, what my mom tried to deliver here, it is not the love of a man and a woman. It's a love of the Creator to His creation. The love that never end like the ocean and the wind that will never stop.

Belitung. Thank you for everything. I'll see you again. InsyaAllah.

P/s= She always let go of my hand, and when I fell, she always be there and asked me "Do you hurt Fatihah Anisah?", "Yes, I am". She always gonna said "Good, then you will grow up". My mom is the best teacher, the best mother, the best friend out of the best, the best human being ever existed in my life.

Thank you mama.

Cuti!

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Hohohoho. Habis sudah exam integrasi dua blok 12. Means..... Holiday! Rasanya blok 12 kali agak tough, susah, memeningkan kepala dan banyak lagi. Tapi yang pasti apa yang blok 12 ini bagi kepada saya adalah, seberapa banyak pun ilmu yang saya cuba pelajari masih banyak lagi yang saya tidak tahu.

Cuba bayangkan anda ada begitu banyak antibiotic, semuanya boleh pakai untuk infeksi, semuanya ada efek yang tertentu dan semuanya masih akan ada yang lagi baru. Lagi banyak perkara yang anda terokai, lagi banyak perkara yang anda tidak tahu. I love it!

Apa-apa pun, saya akan pergi bercuti. Hee. Well. Pulau Belitung wait for me! *Pulau Belitung adalah pulau untuk cerita Laskar Pelangi*.

P/S= Dear Belitung. I hope that the lessons that you had been portray in the movie, I learn it live from you.

Santa Claus! Ho Ho Ho.

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Dear Santa Claus

(If you ever existed) *I never believe in your existence*

Please give me a gift, a superpower. A superpower that whenever I touch a person, he/she either be healthy or rich or beauty or happy. The first person who I m gonna touch is me. I want to be prettier, so Jaybum could notice me. Then, I'll touch myself again, so that I can be rich. The first thing I am going to do with the money is I will spend it here. Ok.

Enough with Santa Claus...

(A small note to never existed santa.. I m sorry...)

P/s= Beauty and rich cannot guarantee your happiness. But health and pure heart sure does. That what my mom always said.

P/s/s= But I do believed in Laksamana Chen Ho, Puteri Hang Li Po and Lingua Franca!

P/s/s= I got an aunt with a cancer. When ever I asked her "Maklang sihat?" She always going to put a smile on her face and said "Alhamdulillah, masih panjang umur. Belajar elok-elok. We need you". You know what, her words and her expression never leave my head. She is a luekemia's survivor. So far...

Rafting. Pictures Version.

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Gambar rafting! Dah lama dapat, tapi disebabkan internet sangatlah lambat. Saya tidak boleh upload. Hehehehe.

Muka-muka excited untuk rafting. Ini sebelum perjalanan 4 jam.

We are on the same boat. You die, I die.

This is how the starting point looks alike. Excited excited excited.

Masa terima ceramah dari komando. Semua orang buat muka "Baik tuan!"

Inilah permulaan perjalanan kami di sungai cantik gorgeous ini.

Splashing air!

Best!

Crash? No no no. Gimik semata-mata.

Boat ini boleh bengkok.

Inilah boat yang crash dengan boat kitaorang. Nasib baik kasut crocs Teeqah yang I pinjam tidak hilang.

Sungai Benten. Cantik.

Mereka mereka mereka.

Macam main papan lungsur version boat dalam air. Ok. Fine, saya mengarut.

Ini sudah mahu sampai ke pengakhiran.

The end point.

The rafting journey ended here, but the journey toward the end of the day never end and never stop.

Saya = Makcik

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Hmm. Roommate saya selalu cakap saya macam makcik. Nahh. I give you a 'makcik'.

Hadoi. Makcik ini bukan nak bagi nasihat ka apa. Ini ha, makcik baru ja baca pasal budak muda zaman sekarang nama dia Alviss Kong , dia baru saja bunuh diri semalam malam, waktu makcik tengah tengok America Next Top Model. Sebab dia, dia putus cinta. Haish.

Anak muda zaman sekarang memang macam ini. Putus cinta bunuh diri, tiada kerja bunuh diri, tiada duit bunuh diri, tak dapat keputusan elok bunuh diri, dll. Dunia ini besar anak-anak oi. Alam ini luas. Semuanya untuk manusia terokai dan telusuki. Janganlah kita duduk terperuk dalam satu kotak. Bumi ini bulat, when you gets around it, it's never going to end. Tidak percaya? Try rumus bumi "V is equal to 4 over 3 pi r cube". Kalau putus cinta, cari yang lain. Tiada kerja? No worries (makcik belajar english dari cucu jiran makcik), cari kerja lain. Tidak dapat keputusan elok? Tiada apa-apa, pergi tusyen lagi.

Oklah. Mungkin, orang kata senanglah makcik nak kata macam ini. Memang senang pun. Sebab makcik dah tua kan. Anak-anak ramai. Bagi duit berkepok-kepok. Kaya-raya makcik. Pakcik pun sihat walafiat lagi. SPM, Universiti semua dah lepas.

Tapi sebelum makcik dapat pakcik ini, makcik dah putus cinta 10 kali dah. Tapi makcik tidak putus asa. Makcik cari lagi. Tengok, sekarang steady and cool saja, 20 tahun dah makcik dan pakcik kahwin. Sebelum makcik dapat kerja, makcik kena cari kerja tunggang langgang sampai semua orang kenal makcik sebagai pencari kerja sejati. Makcik tidak putus asa. Sebelum makcik lulus SPM dan Universiti, makcik belajar sungguh-sungguh. Walaupun keputusan tidak elok. Tiada apa-apa. Kegagalan itu adalah kejayaan tertunda (Ini kata-kata ex makcik, dia sekarang director of Royal College of Medicine Perak).

Jadi anak-anak, jangan sekali-kali putus asa. Hidup dan mati itu di tangan Tuhan. Berserah nyawa kepadaNya selama kita berusaha menjadi lebih baik. Kalau makcik dapat Alviss Kong itu, makcik bagi tupai gigit dia, supaya dia dapat Rabies. Degil sangat.

Setakat itu sajalah bebelan makcik.Letih juga cakap banyak ini.

P/s= When the human first started to realize they were been living on the earth, they thought the earth was flat. They were wrong, the earth is sphere. You got 360 degree. So go and explore. Don't stick to 180 degree (a straight line). You going to waste your life like Alviss do. He just want to stick to his 180 degree beautiful girlfriend.

My Bad English.

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I went to Central Park Mall just now. I was with Iqin, my cook-house-groupmate. It is just two of us. Done with some shopping and 'lepak'ing, we headed out from Carrefour. I was sitting on the bench in front of Carrefour, waiting for Iqin to buy tickets for movie, with my trolley in front of me, my chin on the side of the trolley.

The bench is in the star shape with the middle of triangle. From my seat, I could see a Bread Talk across my view, if I turn my head to my right I could see Carrefour and BurgerKing. Then, there come a boy and his mother and his nanny (i guess). The boy is around one year old. He been playing with his trolley, try to crash it against anything. So cute.

I could smell of Bread Talk mixed up with Burger King's and some Bread Life's. Ouh. I dont know how to describe it. It's just it. I could hear a very loud sound from the unknown direction, it's a song. People walked and talked. The waiter of the Burger King talked to his mate, then they laughed. A massive one. The boy who try to crash his trolley, stop doing that. Tired maybe. But he's not going to stop, he walked around and around the big poll beside the bench, playing with his young nanny.

Then, there were three ladies walked across us, they wearing in red. There a lot of people walking, but I remember them well. Maybe because they look so gorgeous. I wonder, is it because of the Christmas that all of them wore red? I dont know. Christmas is just around the corner.

At some point, sitting on the bench, watching, smelling and hearing to all that around me, it make me feel that I just love my life. Despite of Block 12 that happen to be tough and hard. Despite of the exam that I think I can't do well. Despite of the surgery class that I didn't go. It's fine.

People walking and talking. While you been sad and miserable. They just go on. That so life.

And who knows for the next three years, I am going to be a doctor. A real one.

Jaybum

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Hai! *Excited*

Jaybum datang Jakarta! *nada jerit macam fangirl yang sangat gila*. Nak pergi nak pergi nak pergi jumpa Jaybum. Huuu. Tapi tak tahu bila dan kat mana.

Boleh tak kalau nak merayau-rayau macam orang tak betul tanya, kat mana nak jumpa Jaybum. Seriously seriously saya nak jumpa Jaybum. Nak nak nak.

Tolonglah kalau sesiapa tahu, bagi tahu saya.

Saya dan Jaybum tengah berpijak pada bumi yang sama, menghirup udara yang sama. Yeay! Ok fine. Kalau dia kat Seattle pun sama juga. Tapi kali ini rasa macam dekat. Hoohohohoh. Gatal!

Jaybum, Welcome to Jakarta and enjoy your time here! I wish I could see you. Oh, I know that I cant now. But for sure, I will one day. This wasn't just a promise of a fangirl. Watch me!

Sesuai Atau Tidak?

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Hai. Nama saya Fatihah Anisah. Dari kecil sampai besar bila saya tanya mak saya Fatihah Anisah itu maksudnya apa, mak saya pasti akan cakap maksudnya adalah perempuan tua yang tidak pernah kahwin. Dalam kes ini maksudnya anak dara tua. Waktu itu, ayah saya lebih kepada memandang dan tersenyum dengan jawapan mak saya itu. Saya? Of courselah saya rasa tak syok kan. Haish.

Then, bila dah masuk form 5, saya tanya lagi maksudnya nama saya apa, mak saya tetap akan cakap nama saya maksudnya perempuan tua yang tak pernah kahwin. Haish. Tapi kali ini ayah saya masuk campur. Ayah cakap mak saya main-main. Maksud nama saya adalah permulaan wanita. Kali ini, mak saya pula yang memandang dan tersenyum.

Ok. Post kali ini bukan nak berbincang pasal kahwin atau apa. Tapi saya rasa maksud nama saya memang agak sedikit tidak sesuai dengan perangai saya. Yalah. Ingat lagi masa darjah 1, kena suntik ubat, subkutan ok. Nama saya first tapi saya takut, saya tolak kawan saya dulu, kawan saya pergi sambil nangis saya ikut belakang sambil nangis juga. Nampak sangat saya memang tak sesuai jadi orang yang mula-mula. Haish.

Ok. What I am going to say is, saya memang takut kena suntik. *Macam tak ada kaitan je* Fine. Lepas itu bila sudah ambil course medic ini, nak ke tak nak ke, memang kena suntik dan disuntik. So, disebabkan baru-baru ini saya ada pelajaran untuk melakukan vein's puncture (cucuk vein orang, hisap darah dia, guna syringe *Ini bukan cerita Vampire's Diaries) isu yang di mana saya memang tidak sesuai jadi orang pertama muncul kembali.

Memanglah akan muncul, sebab saya hanya duduk dan melihat dan akhirnya pening tidak bersebab. Saya tidak cucuk orang dan orang tidak cucuk saya. Fair right? Ok. Vein's puncture is hurt and scary. Haish.

Masalahnya timbul bila saya selalu merasakan sampai bila saya akan terus begini. Takut kena ambil darah dan mengambil darah. Sampai bila? Sampai bila Fatihah Anisah? Sampai bila perempuan tua yang tidak pernah kahwin? Haish. Saya tidak tahu.

Tapi apa yang saya tahu, satu hari nanti saya akan atasi ketakutan itu bukan kerana saya terpaksa untuk menjadi seorang doktor tetapi kerana saya mahu. Saya mahu atasinya. Bila dan bagaimana? Saya tidak tahu.

Yang pasti saya akan.