Those Old Days.

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Done with first Integration Exam for the Block 13! Fhewww.... *Berpeluh la juga eden jawob soalan ni ha*

I once had a dream, that one day when I am a grow up, I would marry my father. So, the Freud's theory that say children at the age of 4-5 years old will fall in love with their parents is quite true.

I had that dream when I was exactly around that age. I still remembered that day, I had a very big fight with my brother over the TV channel. I end up ran to my bedroom and cried, when I had stopped crying, I hope my brother would come to me and say everything is ok. I wasn't asked for his forgiveness or what because I knew that, part of the fight, there was also my fault. But he didn't came at all. I was so ashamed to go out either. So, I stayed in the bedroom till it dark.

Then, my father came home. I think he realized that I was not with them and he looked for me. I knew that. When he had found me, the first thing he did was hugged and kissed me on the forehead and said everything is ok before brought me out of my bedroom. My father was the one who said that everything is ok when I was expected it from my brother. That very moment, I really hope that I would marry my father one day.

Now, I am 20, I know that dream will never be accomplish. But, whenever I look back, I know that in my childhood life, there was always be my father. So are now.

P/S= The lesson that I learned that day was whenever I have a fight I should not run away because the wound from the fight is more hardly to be mend if I run. Now, I never run anymore.

Full With Images.

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I can't wait to be homed. Seriously, I can't wait. I keep on counting days. I keep on checking on the flight ticket. I keep on calling my parents and I keep on having my family in my head. I want to be homed.

These days, everything happened around me, always reminded me of my hometown. Example, when I walked to the FK, I can't stop myself from comparing my hometown's traffic with Jakarta's. "In Kedah, there will never be this jammed, how I wished I could be there now". This thought keep on banging in my head for the rest of the week. I m seriously homesick right now.

I also read all my posts that I wrote back in Malaysia. I know. I know. I am a pathetic girl. The reasons why I read all those posts are because the posts always gave me the same feeling when I wrote them back then.

Just like when I read my first post of the first time be in Malaysia after almost 8 months and my first aidilftri without my family, I can't stop myself to be back on my mother's brown couch, there was a window just right beside me. My mother's yellow curtain, gave me a silhouette image of pigeon's cage outside of the window. It was in the evening, that sitting-room was glowing with its yellowness that came from the curtain and the paint on the wall.

Yes. My mum's house is yellow *Lie*. Especially, the sitting room *True*. If that, is what you are been thinking.

Sigh. I need to go home. Now, what I need to do is just wait.

P/S= 34 days!

Block 13!

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Today is Friday. Happy Friday!

We are learning about Children Growth and the diseases, of course. It is still in the first week of study. But somehow and somewhat, I think I agreed with Leokid when he used to say that he would not become a Paediatrician. I think me too. Not because I dislike kids or what but because I hearted them so much until I can't bear to see them in pain. For now, I think I don't want to be a Paediatrician. I don't know if that could change in future.

I m prefer forensic though! Hehehe. I still remembered when I was in form five, in Chemistry's subject there was a topic about elements in periodic table. In that topic, you must guess what elements it were based on the color and so many tests. I love it! It's like forensic. Hohohoho.

But I m afraid if I become a Forensician, my mother will chase me out of her house. She was so scared of things like this. When ever I told her I met Cadaver (In my second sem), she kept on asking me "Tak takut ka? Pegang-pegang dia nanti dia bangun". Then, I always going to say "Kalau dia bangun takutlah. Kalau tak, tak takut. Hehehehe"

My mother always scared of some minor things like she will never put herself in the lift alone. Example, last last year my father was admitted, he was in fourth floor. So, when ever she came to the hospital, she always going to phone me first "Teha teha, mama dekat depan lift. Ambil mama jap". When I asked her why she was so afraid to lift alone, she said that "Yalah, kalau lift tu mati macam mana. Takuttt".

When ever there was an advertisement of a horror movie. She going to close her ears and eyes. Then, when I saw my mother did that, I m not be able to scare anymore. I laughed. Haish. Mama mama.

Smilers Never Loose, Frowners Never win.

Assalamualaikum

I am listening to this song these days.

You are my sunshine.

This is the original. I guess.

I love these songs. Sedap kan? Hohohohoho. ^^

Happy New Year!

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Happy 2011 Year! Hehehe.

I read some websites, blogs, twitter updates just now. I never knew that 2010 could be any hurt to anyone. At least to them, 2010 did. It is not that the person that I read about blamed 2010, but they just thought it was unlucky for them in 2010. They wished that 2011 will give them what they want.

I hope they get what they want. I hope 2011 do really give them happiness. If getting whatever they want is the happiness, I'll spare my new year's hope for them.

I don't know why. I never had even a slightest thought that 2010 was bad or unlucky year. Every seconds, every minutes, every days, every weeks, every months, every years are always a blast to me. I thanks Allah for those opportunities given. To be apart of the year, to be apart of this world. Maybe sometime I cried, but there are always some happy moments that accompanied me there. When I recalled those shed moments, I always recalled those laugh my out loud moments too. It is not wrong to be broken sometime, but it is not wrong to smile after that too right? Hee.

So 2010, thank you for had been a very remarkable year, thank you for your presence, thank you for your past. ^^

2011, I hope that you will bring all the happiness for those that unlucky in 2010. I hope I will be a better, better, better, betteeerr person when you are around.

Welcome 2011! Goodbye 2010! *Pom Pom Pom Pom Pom (fireworks)*

P/S= Wink!