My Laziness and My Love Letters.

Assalamualaikum..

It's end of October 2012. My wish to post something in this blog for each month seem unreal. Sorry I left for a month.

Sigh. Now is a pre-exam syndrome because I felt like to post something, I felt interesting on those little things that I was never before. I was and still so lazy about exams. I believe everyone feel the same. Hee. Every time I going to have the exams or felt lazy to study I asked my mother to wash away my laziness. Then, like always she going to say, go back to my book and etc.

This is my mother advise for this time:

Teha: Mama, teha malas nak belajar.

Mama: Pergi baca buku. Nanti nak exam.

Teha: Mama, bagila motivasi sikit. Huuu.

Mama: Teha pernah dengar tak bersusah-susah dulu bersenang-senang kemudian?

Teha: Pernah..

Mama: Teha nak senang dulu ke teha nak senang kemudian?

Teha: Nak senang kemudian. Taknak senang dulu, nanti kemudian susah.

Mama: Ok, sekarang pergi belajar.

Teha: Baik ! ^^




For that when to "bersenang", I am glad my mother said that. And I wonder that word can also implies to this dunya too isn't? I always said we will reap what we sow. Are we sow enough? If we chose to "bersenang" in this dunya, then we chose to "bersusah" in akhirah.



My little gifts that I received. 

 

My Love letter/card. 

My second love letter/card. 

P/S= Maktam sayang Alya, Aimi juga ! ^^

Raya Datang Lagi.

Assalamualaikum

They say destiny is a funny thing. The one you expect to be somebody today could end up to be someone else tomorrow. And for every choice that lead them toward that destiny, the only thing that I can do is happy and praying for them. Hehehehe. Well. Future is never ours.

Aaahhh.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ! It is not that late right? Hee. Well. This Aidilfitri I did things that I should have before. Visit families and friends. The old friends and the long lost family members with a smiling heart.

Our little girl who growing fast now, Qaseh.


We all end up to be here one day. Soil will be home for good or bad. It's time to reap what they sow. Hi Tok Ayah.You were gone when mama was a young girl in your sujud. Do you know me?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri !

Semester 7 start now. The last semester before the clinical year. Please be focus Fatihah Anisah.




P/S= What can I ask more when You gave me the best. Families, friends and even the air that I breath. Thank you my Lord.

A Child That Cried.

Assalamualaikum.

Hee. I am back to Jakarta. It's mean I failed my exam. But Alhamdulillah, out of 12 stations I just failed one. Alhamdulillah. Hehehe.

You know, I did complaint a lot. Why this Allah? Why that Allah? I prayed hard and I studied hard like I never did before, just for me to pass all the stations. Why just one station, when You can passed me all? Why in this last ten of Ramadhan? Why? Maybe it sounded like a blame.

Indeed it was.

Then, Alhamdulillah, I thought about it back. When I have a bad feeling or intention, I always going to asked myself, it is right for me to have this? Is Allah happy with this? Those are the questions that always made me reflected myself.

I did not know, maybe this is the best for me. Like the best thing that a mother did when she took away a knife from her three years old child. The mother know that knife going to hurt the child. Then, the child was crying, get mad to her mother because she did that. The child not even realized that was because the mother wanted to protect her from the danger.

Then, I realized, there must be something that Allah know what best for me. Things that Allah wants me to learn from this failure. Things that Allah tried to protect me from anything that I did not know just like that child who did not know and understand her mother intention. I must learn to lean and believe in Allah. This is the lesson that I learnt from all this.

Who said a misfortune is a bad luck? Maybe it is the best plan that Allah gave for us to learn something from it. For those who doesn't see it as the best thing, is the one who missed the opportunity to learn from that plan actually. So, Fatihah Anisah believe it !! Heee. And believe that Allah know best, things that we don't know.

P/s= Happy Birthday Fatihah Anisah ! And Selamat 10 Ramadhan Terakhir ! Mama... Nak balik rumah... *Crying*

Home.

Assalamualaikum..

Ramadhan is coming. It is a week away. Last year, I was so eager to go home. Hee. This year I must faced the exam first, wait for the result, take it again (if I failed the first) and then thinking about home. Sigh. If you know how much my heart longing for home right now. *Crying*

Hee. Can't wait for Ramadhan and this time, it is in Jakarta for quite a whole month *Kasihan mak I mesti rindu*. Hukhuk. I want to go home..

Oh. I miss my three nieces (Ye, keluarga saya, keluarga perempuan). They must grown so much right now, asking a lot of questions, quarrel with everyone especially my mother and be as sweet as they are.

Hi ! I am Qaseh. ^^

P/S= Ramadhan, for everything within you, I can't wait for you to come. Even this time, it is quite different but it is ok. It's always going to be ok. Right? *Smile*

Time.

Assalamualaikum..

I have exam tomorrow and next week. Huuu. But then, like always I am wasting my time. Hee. Well. I still alive and I am fine.

This few days, I was thinking, for my entire life, I always know that no matter how hard I tried or how much money that I have, I will never buy the time. The time left, there is not even one second could be undo. This 3.55 pm on 12/07/2012 will never be same with the 3.55 pm on any dates.

But then, even with that realization I, Fatihah Anisah still wasting my time. Hmm. Big problem.

"By times,
Indeed mankind is in lost,
Except for those who believe and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience"
103:1-3

P/S= This few days, I was thinking, am I one of, the one that Allah oath by time, the person who in lost? I don't know. But one thing that I know, I miss home so much...