I Love Malaysia but I am Living in Indonesia.

Assalamualaikum.

When my mother asked me what about Indonesia that I love so much after we had a few disagreement regarding something about it and I was so defensive, it's got me thinking. Do I love Indonesia?

After a few minutes, I told my mother, Yes ! I love Indonesia, then my mother just went with 'Ok !". But I didn't tell her the reasons.There are so many reasons why I developed my feeling toward Indonesia. Indonesia is like my second home now. Realized it or not, I have been there for four years and it's a lie if I said that Indonesia is nothing to me.

What is Indonesia to me? It's a teacher who taught how important my family are and how to be me. I was a different person four years ago. I didn't say that Indonesia changed me but I can say that Indonesia is the witness of my growing years. For that, I thanked Indonesia so much. Hehehe..

I didn't tell anyone before, one of the things that I love about that country is the language. I always told that there was not much difference between Bahasa Malaysia and Bahasa Indonesia, yes it's right. But the thing is Bahasa Indonesia is a beautiful language to me. It's ok if no one agree, well, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Hee. I love Bahasa Malaysia too, so don't get me wrong. But when you are living in it, you don't realized how treasured you are toward that thing. That what Indonesia taught me about Malaysia and the language.

When you are away for a long time, then come back to Malaysia and heard the conversation between the people in the Malay, you can't stop yourself to feel you are belong here. Belong in Malaysia. When I was a child I never understand the proverb "Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri", now, I knew it well.  

I don't say Indonesia it's all about the good things. There still corruptions, you need money everywhere, the poverty, the unequal distribution of people which make some province is so packed and so on. But hmm I don't know what to say. I am living in it, I get used to it and like it or not accepted it as a part of it there.

I am going back to Jakarta in a few days. *Crying again*. I love Malaysia and I love home. There are so much foods here. *Munching nuts*




P/S= The teacher can always forget about its students but the students never or rarely forget their teacher. I love Istanbul too !  *My vacation dream*

Questions and Answers.

Assalamualaikum..

Home is the best. You have foods everywhere and I am fat. I can't stop eating too, my mother told me to stop eating. Yes ! She told me to stop eating, that is how bad my eating disorder now. Hehehehe.

Since before, I always have a lot of questions, like why the ants love sugar? Why the ants drowning in the cup of sugary drink? Why I was born? Who am I? Why I have a pair of eyes? Why not I have three eyes? Why the teacher said stop thinking where the Allah came from? Why, How, What and so on. When I was a little kid, some question was answered by my mother but the rest left with no answer. 

Now, I still have a lot of questions. Most of the questions I tried to figure it out, the answers always come from the scientific way. Like What made the earth? Earth crust, mantle and core. What made earth crust? What made mantle? What made core? The questions grew and become endless. In the end, the answers always came one familiar direction, that is Allah. Then, what Yasmeen Mogahed always tries to tell that come back to Allah is indeed the undeniable truth. That no matter how far and scientific the questions are, they always tell us that everything came from Allah. So, start thinking and come back. Oh. Don't ask me question because whatever the question is, truthfully, I don't know ok. Hee. Start looking for yourself.

I love been a little kid. Asked a lot of questions, having the answers that I agreed and disagreed was much easier that looking for the answer and thinking by myself. Sometimes, I stopped thinking because I am too lazy to find the answer. Yes, I am a lazy girl. Sigh.

Is it just me with a lot of questions or there are someone else too? It is not wrong to have the questions right? Am I questioning now? Again, questions.  =P







P/s=  Ahhh.. Sometimes I must answered too. Recently, the questions always going to be "Teha, bila nak kahwin?"  Aigooo...

February 2013

Assalamualaikum..

Hehehehe... Happy New Year. 7th semester ended well. Well.. Not that very well. But Alhamdulillah, I considered it well. Hee. Now, I am on holiday which I tried to enjoy it by reading all the books. My house has a big rack fulled with the collection of novels and variety of book. That's going to be my new wish this holiday, finishing all that.  I can do this ! *Cough*

Happy holiday ! Ah.. I failed one station for my second OSCE and my mom said 'Belajarlah untuk redha' and I am learning it. Alhamdulillah. That's what I should do right? Trying my best to study, doing my best on the exam, then tawakkal and then whatever the results are you have to redha. And then, get up, pick up the fallen pieces. Hee.

Now, my mother has a new mission, finding the future husbands for all her daughters. *tepuk dahi*


Ok. Good bye !












P/S= I am afraid the longer I abandoned this blog, the easier it's going to be forgotten by me. Then, it won't suit the early purpose of it, capturing my memories, my moments and my thoughts.

Memory is a Good Thing.

Assalamualaikum...

Memory is always a good thing. Even there are some good and some bad. The good memories remain to be remember and the bad one remain to be a lesson. Hee. OSCE is coming. Just a few week away. I still can feel my last OSCE in Ramadhan, then here come another OSCE. Nervous, of course.

Oh. This is my November's post. See.. I kept my promise. Now, I don't know what to say anymore. Then, that's all for today. Hee.

I don't know if others have the same feeling, but I always think that the earth from above is so interesting. It's like you are looking at the mini toys, the mini toys of God. I've been back and forth from Jakarta-Malaysia for a few years now and each time for landing or departing, I'll always have a sneak peek.

Realize it or not, sometime we are so proud of who we are, least to know that actually, in this part of the world, we are even smaller than a dot.  And if you ever know, the earth is just a dust in this universe. So magnificent.


Again, my laziness won't go away but my exam is coming. Sigh. Problem right ? =,=




P/S= Dear Gazans, Allah will always be with you and our prayers will accompany you until the justice is upright. You are never alone.

My Laziness and My Love Letters.

Assalamualaikum..

It's end of October 2012. My wish to post something in this blog for each month seem unreal. Sorry I left for a month.

Sigh. Now is a pre-exam syndrome because I felt like to post something, I felt interesting on those little things that I was never before. I was and still so lazy about exams. I believe everyone feel the same. Hee. Every time I going to have the exams or felt lazy to study I asked my mother to wash away my laziness. Then, like always she going to say, go back to my book and etc.

This is my mother advise for this time:

Teha: Mama, teha malas nak belajar.

Mama: Pergi baca buku. Nanti nak exam.

Teha: Mama, bagila motivasi sikit. Huuu.

Mama: Teha pernah dengar tak bersusah-susah dulu bersenang-senang kemudian?

Teha: Pernah..

Mama: Teha nak senang dulu ke teha nak senang kemudian?

Teha: Nak senang kemudian. Taknak senang dulu, nanti kemudian susah.

Mama: Ok, sekarang pergi belajar.

Teha: Baik ! ^^




For that when to "bersenang", I am glad my mother said that. And I wonder that word can also implies to this dunya too isn't? I always said we will reap what we sow. Are we sow enough? If we chose to "bersenang" in this dunya, then we chose to "bersusah" in akhirah.



My little gifts that I received. 

 

My Love letter/card. 

My second love letter/card. 

P/S= Maktam sayang Alya, Aimi juga ! ^^